*sorry! this is a lil' bit long=P but still hope you guys will read it!*
hi all, tianju here=))
i would just like to express my thoughts about the past 2 days happenings. What happened over these two days really made me feel that
I AM PROUD TO BE A CSS DANCER.
yesterday was a special day, it was syf 2007, together with marcela and huihui, we decided to return to css to show our jnrs support, i didnt thought of asking the others from jc as i thought they have lessons, but early in the morning, michelle msged me and asked me whether i am going, and she wants to go too, she specially asked for early leave. as soon as schools ended, i cabbed down to css and went straight to the dance room. i witnessed the usual familiar scene, everybody looking all flustered, trying to get everything ready in time. at that moment, someone appeared, and it was meijun, behind her was sinkuan. i was really shocked, i didn't expect that they would make a trip down as well. at that moment, i just felt so touched and happy, css dance is really a big family, we love and care for each other wherever we are. there were 7 generations of css dancers all together! oh yah! the sec 1s even made little gifts for the dancers, they were really sweet=))
the syf started with the rv item, i shan't comment much, but they are really good. next up was commonwealth, mandy started the dance with a solo, mengyu, crystal and sarah came on awhile later, and subsequently everyone else..as i watched the dance, i began to tear, maybe i just tear easily, but all i can say was i just felt so so so proud of our juniors. looking at the present sec 4s, who were then sec 2s, they;ve grown up so much...
i went back for about 3-4 syf practices, and i'm just so proud that they made it ultimately. during one of the most recent practices that i went back, i observed the practice session from break onwards, during the break, i saw the sec 4s working hard, practising their steps repeatedly, stretching diligently, some of the juniors following suit too, i still remember how we had to made them make use of the break time to practise their steps, now they are doing it themselves, because they are already the seniors, they know the importance, they are leading by example. during their actual practice for syf dance, as usual, they got scoldings from ding hong lao shi, and at times ding hong lao shi just looked exasperated. we had a talk with the com after the prac and found out that they had all been working hard, having additional practices on saturday mornings, with the seniors correcting each and every single formation, but somehow when they do it in front of lao shi, they just cannot get it right...all these were normal, we experienced it before too, but what really made me glad was when the com add on, 'but they've all really been working really hard, but somehow they just don't get it'. i was glad because, at the very least, they've put in their effort, they worked, they tried, i'm proud of them.
twice, what we hoped for didn't happen, we were left disappointed. we cried, we were devastated. but twice, i've felt it. the power of our bond, it's this special thing among css dancers. two years ago, when i told everyone the outcome, we cried and cried, two years later, today, they cried. but dancers, i just wanna say, we can all keep our heads high. we shared a common dream, two years ago and now. both times, we worked towards this common goal as css dance society, both times, we look back and we will find out that results is not the most impt thing. both times, we can all be proud of ourselves because we gave it all. and both times, we can look back at not only the results, but at what we gained from the journey to reaching our dream. as a senior, i looked on, and i realised it's the bond that we developed, it's the common love for css dance, the common concern for css dance, i was on the phone with meijun, marcela and huihui in the morning, all of us very concerned about you guys, and we all felt your pain and sadness. i talked to sarah on the phone and one of the first things she said was 'sorry, we didn't get gold with honours for you all', but dear dancers, gold with honours to us is not the most important thing, because no matter what happened, all the seniors will be very very proud of every single one of you, as we the seniors watched you guys yesterday, every single one of us were proud of you. you've gave it your all, you should have no regrets.
actually, i have my own personal blog, 2 years ago, apr 10, two days b4 our syf2005, i posted a post, i never told anybody about it, and i'll share it with all of you now,
'ATTENTION ALL CSS SYF CHINESE DANCERS 2005:
no matter what might happen on that day
no matter what is the result
deep down in my heart
every single one of u is a champion,
as a grp together,
we r the champions
whether we get it or not
WE R THE CHAMPS!!'
this was what i wrote exactly on apr10th, 2 days b4 our syf 2 years ago, and this applies to the dancers then, and it also applies to the dancers now=))
cssdance experience will be one of the best experience in my life, we may not have gotten the best glory, but the bond we share, our love for each other and our common experience will always link us together, we are one big family. dear juniors, yours seniors are always with you and we are always so proud of you, no matter what, you guys are always the champion in my heart, nothing means much more than to see you guys grow to become mature dancers, because this is what cssdance do to us all. i never regret being part of it and i hope you guys too. you'll be sad, you'll tear, but remember, at the end of it, results may not matter as much, it is what you've given, and what you've picked up along this journey, once again, i'm really proud of every single on of your.
I AM PROUD TO BE A CSS DANCER.
love you guys always,
tianju